Some of these, like this one, I wrote awhile back...
I'm sitting here thinking about a million things as usual, feeling a little stuffed from the lovely apple crisp that I just inhaled. I know I really didn't need to eat any, but unfortunately I love good food. At least Don loves everything I make, Kai on the other hand is a little more picky, he asked for ice cream instead, oh well. So I was holding my son Kai last night trying to comfort him because something or other had just happened, he was tired and punchy and ready to go to sleep. I remembered how we used to hold him and pat him gently to sleep, when he was just a tiny baby. Anyway, thoughts just flooded my head and I felt like I was ready to cry. From the moment I found out I was pregnant with him, I loved him like nothing else in this world, and when he was born it was like the most amazing, life altering moment ever. I didn't know how much he would change me. So many memories, laughs, places we go, things we do and learn together, his beautiful blue green eyes and his beautiful little face, it's really hard to get mad at him even when he's naughty. We are re-living our childhood again, I mean, when was the last time you played with Playdoh, went down the slide on a cardboard box, swung high on the swing at the playground?? Holding him I looked far into the future and I realized he would be the one holding me, comforting me when I get old. Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed with work and life and trying to just remember everything and live day to day, but I put him and Don before everything as I should and I know it's hard work, but everything eventually falls into place so I don't worry as much. I love being Kai's mom, it's the best thing that ever happened to me.
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I think its awesome that your a stay at home mom! It is an honor to be able to raise children, as you already know I raise 2 and neither one of them are mine but, I know that when they go to school, play with their friends, or think twice about breaking the rules my words will echo in their heads! Its an amazing journey, and all in all I wouldn't trade this experience for the world! I know baby k has a good head on his shoulders because mommy and daddy sacrificed and stayed together to pat him to sleep and tuck him in, and that very thing is what he will think about when he is a grown boy making sacrifices for his home! Keep up the great work you strong woman!
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